thinking of one

New Year party is around the corner and apart from guzzling cans of beers
and texting bye bye 2008 type smses what else i m gonna do..
Nothing special..
What else did I do last year...
Nothing special again..
Frenzy and festivities of idiot box (I am at home ..U see) trying to suck me up in this vortex of New Year phenomenon...
I have a great deal of maudlin stuff to get off my chest this night...
For some it leads to a new promise, new vows
For some it’s the single biggest showdown of every year..
For some it’s the time to chase down old days and gone time...
I belong to that some...
I have this weird habit of being in two times at times...
I live this event with an eye as to what I will have to say for this thing 1 year down the line...
May be that precludes me from being in that moment fully but this assortment of little moments And their subtitles have given a delightful kaleidoscope...
This New Year my slide show for the best and the greatest of the fading calendar will be pages of Memories...
Year 2008 marked the end of a personal epoch...
Four awesome years of engineering...
I always wondered why B.Tech as engineer is not as conspicuous as an MBBS being doctor...
I got my answers first hand...
B.Tech...
It’s an idiom of carefree-ness, companionship, courage (40 subjects...) personified by each outgoing engineer....
Then there were experiences I wanted to have...
Usual guy stuff...
I had...
Best part of all was the friends I made...
I saw them singing best songs...saying low things...doing great feats...
Doing cheap stuff...and yeah sometimes I wondered do I really knew them at all...
But that something I have asked myself umpteen times feeling
Do I know myself at all...?
Today when I am grappling with presentations and case studies and a place where your logic will be stripped to the bone by very own classmates...i yearn for those days when fallacies and foibles where your ticket to fame....
I kind of feel how naive last event was when everything seemed liked eternity and its denouement today seems like just another crossroad in light-years long mesh...
My climax won’t be the one until someone else has to pen it for me...
Wishful thinking...that’s the easy virtue we seek at new year eve...
And great to feel it’s one time of year when u say some high held words to your future...

Sort of re-birth...birthday eves may also vie for that occasion but we are too lame to think beyond our count of gifts and wishes...
so that brings me to hustling and hopes of 2009..
I wish this New Year I could be honest with my dumbles and crunches....
I get over my procrastination...
Read more, play more, travel more, see more...
As an adult franchisee of this great nation being run by the most incompetent guys my only wish will be they speed up Delhi- Gurgoan metro project ....sitting duck as we are for others ,at least get me the legs of an ostrich...